Midnight rant...

Posting now that net is back...


14th July 2011:
Oh where is the net connection when you need it the most? This is 14th July, past midnight, me the insomniac wanted some net time. I'm a night bird that way, enjoying any activity the most when the world at large sleeps n I can have my own peace. Staying at home makes me practically free all day right? But I have this theory, the days are for working, the nights are for enjoying, n all the time that you find in-between: for sleeping. I manage to do a lot of the the in-between sleep thing when my mind shuts down, or refuses to function any further,  but till that exhaustion point is reached, n if it's night, when I can read, write, listen to music, n it is further established that none of these activities can give me anything but a severe headache, then why I must do it.. So here I'm, one am at night writing rubbish, or is the word hyperventilating?!
I cleared the DU entrance exam, but cannot take admission, as the subject I chose while filling the form was not the one I was eligible to take, n did not hence choose subjects I would have been eligible for........ Clearly I loved not wisely but too well.... I don't know wether to be sad, or accept it with a pinch of salt n move on... Move on I have to, but the exact style is what I'm still making my heart up about. Am trying to think there us some good in this, maybe I'll figure it out at some point, for now, I did cry at this, but only once, n that may have been largely due to hunger n exhaustion... However flippantly I put it, my heart has been a little bruised, however tragically I put it, my heart is not really truly bruised... Told ya I'm still making up my mind how to deal with this...... An afterthought: when ever something has not worked for me in this life, in the long run? That has bee the best possible solution for me. God keep n bless, n let faith heal what style cannot :-)