Listen to music: feel good!
Read face book status of smarter, better, luckier folks: feel depressed!
Look at work pile: feel weighed down!
Take a walk: feel high..
Enjoy too much: feel guilt...
Feel guilt too much: feel tense....
Feel tense too much: get tipsy... Feel tipsy...
Feel tipsy: feel good!
Disclaimer n Note: it is not necessary to consume alcohol to be tipsy, happiness can also promote tipsy state of mind!
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Midnight rant...
Posting now that net is back...
14th July 2011:
Oh where is the net connection when you need it the most? This is 14th July, past midnight, me the insomniac wanted some net time. I'm a night bird that way, enjoying any activity the most when the world at large sleeps n I can have my own peace. Staying at home makes me practically free all day right? But I have this theory, the days are for working, the nights are for enjoying, n all the time that you find in-between: for sleeping. I manage to do a lot of the the in-between sleep thing when my mind shuts down, or refuses to function any further, but till that exhaustion point is reached, n if it's night, when I can read, write, listen to music, n it is further established that none of these activities can give me anything but a severe headache, then why I must do it.. So here I'm, one am at night writing rubbish, or is the word hyperventilating?!
I cleared the DU entrance exam, but cannot take admission, as the subject I chose while filling the form was not the one I was eligible to take, n did not hence choose subjects I would have been eligible for........ Clearly I loved not wisely but too well.... I don't know wether to be sad, or accept it with a pinch of salt n move on... Move on I have to, but the exact style is what I'm still making my heart up about. Am trying to think there us some good in this, maybe I'll figure it out at some point, for now, I did cry at this, but only once, n that may have been largely due to hunger n exhaustion... However flippantly I put it, my heart has been a little bruised, however tragically I put it, my heart is not really truly bruised... Told ya I'm still making up my mind how to deal with this...... An afterthought: when ever something has not worked for me in this life, in the long run? That has bee the best possible solution for me. God keep n bless, n let faith heal what style cannot :-)
14th July 2011:
Oh where is the net connection when you need it the most? This is 14th July, past midnight, me the insomniac wanted some net time. I'm a night bird that way, enjoying any activity the most when the world at large sleeps n I can have my own peace. Staying at home makes me practically free all day right? But I have this theory, the days are for working, the nights are for enjoying, n all the time that you find in-between: for sleeping. I manage to do a lot of the the in-between sleep thing when my mind shuts down, or refuses to function any further, but till that exhaustion point is reached, n if it's night, when I can read, write, listen to music, n it is further established that none of these activities can give me anything but a severe headache, then why I must do it.. So here I'm, one am at night writing rubbish, or is the word hyperventilating?!
I cleared the DU entrance exam, but cannot take admission, as the subject I chose while filling the form was not the one I was eligible to take, n did not hence choose subjects I would have been eligible for........ Clearly I loved not wisely but too well.... I don't know wether to be sad, or accept it with a pinch of salt n move on... Move on I have to, but the exact style is what I'm still making my heart up about. Am trying to think there us some good in this, maybe I'll figure it out at some point, for now, I did cry at this, but only once, n that may have been largely due to hunger n exhaustion... However flippantly I put it, my heart has been a little bruised, however tragically I put it, my heart is not really truly bruised... Told ya I'm still making up my mind how to deal with this...... An afterthought: when ever something has not worked for me in this life, in the long run? That has bee the best possible solution for me. God keep n bless, n let faith heal what style cannot :-)
Monday, July 18, 2011
The Piper
The Piper...
Reading 'Rilla of Ingleside' for the nth time, actually fourth or fifth time, but the nth time bit sounds good to me..
What is it about war that turns ordinary tales classic,
n what poignant poem did Walter write from the trenches, titled 'The Piper'?
The Piper.
When man turns against man
Against child n woman too,
When prophecies of blood
Graduate to being true,
When we call it war
And holy terrorism..
And beauty is lost
Look to the sky or prism.
Then does the piper pipe
To the heart in you?
To take up the cause
Of tunes that hold true..
For a strife free valley called Kashmir
Or a green green zone on the hills
The piper's piping yet..
And forever will!
Reading 'Rilla of Ingleside' for the nth time, actually fourth or fifth time, but the nth time bit sounds good to me..
What is it about war that turns ordinary tales classic,
n what poignant poem did Walter write from the trenches, titled 'The Piper'?
The Piper.
When man turns against man
Against child n woman too,
When prophecies of blood
Graduate to being true,
When we call it war
And holy terrorism..
And beauty is lost
Look to the sky or prism.
Then does the piper pipe
To the heart in you?
To take up the cause
Of tunes that hold true..
For a strife free valley called Kashmir
Or a green green zone on the hills
The piper's piping yet..
And forever will!
Friday, July 8, 2011
To college, to foolish thoughts n wise dreams!
8th July 2011:
Got loads to do, lovely weather here, bunk it, have chicken, chill!
Surely God is taking care n I mean to rest....:-)
Got admission in Amity Saket for B.Ed. Degree, under I.P. University yesterday,
totally time taking n money consuming process it was too,
gone are the days when one could study for 300 INR a month
:-(
Why the sad face?
Well since I'm all big now, paying for my own education n feeling it too..
n to think I had laughed at the idea of doing B.Ed.when my father had suggested!
Truly, not once have I laughed superiorly in this life,
when that laughter has not come back to laugh at me...
But cheering up, I'm going back to college...
To foolish thoughts n wise dreams :-)
Got loads to do, lovely weather here, bunk it, have chicken, chill!
Surely God is taking care n I mean to rest....:-)
Got admission in Amity Saket for B.Ed. Degree, under I.P. University yesterday,
totally time taking n money consuming process it was too,
gone are the days when one could study for 300 INR a month
:-(
Why the sad face?
Well since I'm all big now, paying for my own education n feeling it too..
n to think I had laughed at the idea of doing B.Ed.when my father had suggested!
Truly, not once have I laughed superiorly in this life,
when that laughter has not come back to laugh at me...
But cheering up, I'm going back to college...
To foolish thoughts n wise dreams :-)
Friday, July 1, 2011
The daughter who does not eat...
What do you do when your daughter takes one hour to eat each meal?
When she just won't have food readily,
Won't drink water without being asked to?
What do you do when you are hoarse from trying to tell her,
That food is not optional,
Hoarse from telling it nicely n definitely not nicely,
N every day because you do know as a mother that food is not optional!
You find that you still go on loving your daughter"......
Ironically I don't know if that's the boon or the bane of being ma,
Does any mom?
When she just won't have food readily,
Won't drink water without being asked to?
What do you do when you are hoarse from trying to tell her,
That food is not optional,
Hoarse from telling it nicely n definitely not nicely,
N every day because you do know as a mother that food is not optional!
You find that you still go on loving your daughter"......
Ironically I don't know if that's the boon or the bane of being ma,
Does any mom?
CRAVINGS!
To crave for chocolate n get salad
To Know not for sure the good from bad,
To crave for the skies n get the nest
To be told it's all for the best!
To want to be secure when you are free
To want to fly n be free no more
To be tied to realities real...
To relentlessly try to soar
To be full n feel anxiety
To have nothing n anticipate
Which one, oh which one you'll pick..
Which desire will you satiate?
To Know not for sure the good from bad,
To crave for the skies n get the nest
To be told it's all for the best!
To want to be secure when you are free
To want to fly n be free no more
To be tied to realities real...
To relentlessly try to soar
To be full n feel anxiety
To have nothing n anticipate
Which one, oh which one you'll pick..
Which desire will you satiate?
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